Where was your soul born?

Cool quiz I got from Quizilla.com. The results are totally accurate.

Your soul was born in the Shadows.
Your soul was born in the shadows of the moon at night. You're all mystery and enigma and your element is the Moon. No one really knows who you are, but they might think they know you. You only tell people fragments of who you are and never show your true personality. That doesn't have to mean that you're being someone you're not though. You're always yourself and you never do something just because someone else does. Some might think you're a little cold or dull, but you're just hiding your true self for some reason. Maybe only a couple of selected people have ever seen the true you. You are loyal to these people and it will take time if anyone else wants to gain your trust. You let people think that they know you and that you trust them. But sooner or later they will realize that they never really knew you. Be careful. Someday you might need someone who knows what you need. Trust people.
You prefer silence and tranquillity. You're calm and collected and a nice person most of the time.

Insured again

If I were to be in a horrible, disfiguring car accident tomorrow, I would actually be able to afford medical care. Good thing too since I'm not the best of drivers. That's right ladies and gentlemen. . . after months of nonstop migraines and the agony of searching for the perfect health insurance, I am now insured. Woo-hoo! It's only costing me $124 a month, but whatever. I just have to make an appointment with a doctor and then I'll FINALLY be able to get my migraine medication.

Speaking of migraines, Kim was telling me about how she had migraines all last weekend. Ordinarily, I would be sympathetic. However, I have a feeling that she has a hard time distinguishing between a really bad headache and a migraine. That kind of offends me. Then she was talking about how annoying her migraines have been lately. Is she kidding me? I mean, seriously. I've been getting them for 23 years. I also have been getting them nonstop for the last six months due to the lack of health insurance coverage. Am I complaining? Uh, not really. (This post doesn't count.) I've never really been one to complain about the fact that I get migraines anyway. It is what it is. There's not a whole lot I can do about it, except shut up and take my pills. Now, thanks to the wonderful people of Aetna, I will be able to do that. Life is good. For now, anyway. Ask me again tomorrow.

The Simpsons

My faith in The Simpsons has been restored. . . for this week. I was beginning to think that Luke was right in the fact that this show had gone downhill. This disturbed me because it is one of my favorite shows. What disturbed me more was the fact that the past two episodes didn't even make me laugh very much. Halfway through the episodes, I found myself thinking: "Who the hell cares?" Cut to me pressing the delete button on my DVR. But tonight's episode was actually FUNNY. It really is the little things. Now if only they could keep this up, I would be ever so happy.

Crazy People

Picture it: I'm in the grocery store (Super Target actually) and I'm in the middle of the aisle talking to myself about what kind of Ziploc bags to get. I think I was having this debate with myself for several minutes and then I realized that there was a man standing next to me. I have no idea how long he was there (probably just a minute), but he must have thought I was just some crazy person talking to the voices in my head. Please. . . when the voices start, I just ignore them. Myself I do not ignore.

Speaking of crazy, maybe someone could enlighten me as to why a person would speak on their cell phone in the restroom. Unless you are calling your doctor or an ambulance because you are deathly ill, there is no reason as to why you can't wait a lousy two minutes to call the person back. Let's get a little perspective here people. That is what voicemail is for.

Biggest challenge from yesterday: resisting the urge to eat at 10:30 at night. I was not hungry, but I still felt like I wanted to eat. It was probably just out of boredom. Luckily, I manage to resist temptation and my calorie intake yesterday was very much where I wanted it to be.

Oh. . . and someone apparently found my blog by doing a google search for "married for the health insurance." How freaky is that? Who searches for that? Would getting married for the insurance be technically illegal? I guess it's a moot point since I don't really have anyone to marry anyway.

What the hell am I doing here?

After my double this weekend at the shelter (yes I worked 16 hours), you would think I would be tired. Ha. An invitation by Kim to see a movie and I was turning right back around to see some "eye" movie. It's official title? The Hills have Eyes. I had never heard of it. I was a little afraid that I would fall asleep during the movie, but not likely. Not after the sugared donut holes Kim and I had at Jillian's (sooo good and sooo bad for you at the same time). And seriously, who the hell could fall asleep during that movie. It was intense, weird, gory, bloody, and unnecessarily violent. In short, I loved it.

Two days since my unnecessary binge on donut holes, nachos, buffalo wings, and potato skins. No lectures, please. I'm just lucky the chocolate didn't cause a migraine. The past two days have been filled with grueling workouts and eating healthy. I feel very good about it. Now if only I can keep this up, maybe I can lose at least 15 pounds by the time Kim and I go on our trip. We'll see.

The Sweetest Thing

Is there any sweeter feeling in the world than crawling into your nice, warm, cozy bed after working an overnight shift? I think not. And I'm sure that my bed will feel so incredibly good today since I am working a double. That's right, I came into work at 11pm last night and I'm not leaving until 3 this afternoon. Oh my bed is going to feel oh so incredible. . . *sigh.*

Mental note: after working an overnight shift, turn cell phone off! Some people don't realize that 11 in the morning or even 2 in the afternoon is the middle of the night for me.

Surprise, surprise

Seems like everyone is disappointed in Bush's performance, even Republicans.

Well, they were stupid enough to vote for him a second time, even after his abysmal first term. What the hell did they expect?

What are the chances of getting a Democrat for president in 2008? Two more years. . . two more to go. Surely, Bush can't completely destroy this country in two years. Right?

Let the good times roll

I am feeling so good lately. Even my migraines have eased off a bit. I think it may be the fact that I am eating a lot better and exercising more. I am trying to work up to 2 hours a day (like I used to do), but I'm still exercising at least an hour every day. I have so much energy. I managed to make it through my overnight shift and even though I only got a total of three hours sleep before working for my dad, I still felt refreshed the entire day. There wasn't even a need for a nap before my evening Spanish class like I thought there would be. I think that energy level is probably due to my better diet. It's expensive eating healthy, though. I did go out and purchase fruits and vegetables (the fruit is fresh as are some of the vegetables and I bought some frozen vegetables as well). I also purchased lots of different alternatives for healthy breakfasts, lunches, dinners, and snacks. I need variety because otherwise I get bored. I had forgotten how good healthy food can be if you are just a little creative and take a little extra time. It can take a lot of time and even some extra expense, but it is worth it. I'm sure the second I publish this post, I'll get another migraine though. I'm totally jinxing myself dammit.

I booked a flight out to see Luke the other day. I'm going out the third week of May. Yay! It's a good thing I booked my flight while Airtran was having their sale. I bought tickets when they were $89 each way. Now, the price has shot up to $134 each way. Yikes. I'm totally excited (mainly just about eating at Golden Port again). Luke's got several things planned for us and they all sound so great. Who knew there was a Jello museum up there? I was there for two years and had no idea. I think we may even go to Niagra Falls and that will be a blast. I have only been there once (with my family just after graduation) and it was raining most of the time, so we didn't walk around as much as we would have. I do have a picture of myself in a poncho though. Yeah, not a pretty sight. But then again, who looks good in a poncho?

Kim and I booked our flights for our trip. I ended up having to pay the way for one of the flights, but I still used a voucher as well. I have more free vouchers left so I can use those for a free trip to L.A. later this year or next year even. I'm so excited about my trip. I'm probably going to be talking about it constantly for the next month or so, so I apologize in advance. I'm just excited about taking a vacation. . . a nice one, too.

And I can't forget to mention that Rent is coming to Georgia! Yay! I love that movie and can't wait to see the play.

The curse of the migraine

Not a whole lot of people can understand what migraines are or how disruptive they can be to you and everyone around you. Unless you get them, you can't understand. Anyway, I found a funny thing on the internet quite a while ago. I don't recall who I stole it from, so if you're reading this I apologize in advance for stealing your work. I thought that my fellow migraine sufferers (you know who you are) might get a kick out of this.

My theory on migraine diagnosis:

"Migraine" means "we don't know what is wrong with you". Further diagnosis
flows from there:

Common Migraine: The most common form of "we don't
know what's wrong with you."

Classical Migraine: "We don't know what's wrong with
you and you have hallucinations too. (We don't know
why.)"

Migraine Variant: You have some variation of "we don't
know what's wrong with you."

Basilar Artery Migraine: "We don't know what's wrong
with you and we don't know what's wrong with your
Basilar Artery either".

Hormonal Migraine: "We don't know what's wrong with
you but you are a woman."


By the way, I happen to have the Basilar Artery migraine. I just got a kick out of that one.

Nightmares

Yesterday was my first day of my new job and it went fairly smoothly. Not that I expected any less. I did have nightmares the night before though. I had a dream that there was a man at the shelter and that he set fire to two of the residents (as well as himself). When I tried to call 911, the phone wouldn't work and the call didn't go through for some reason. So I just left the man who had set the fire passed out in the office for hours. It was very weird and disturbing. Nothing like that would ever happen here. Wait. . . did I just jinx myself? Dammit.

I've been feeling a lot of anger towards people lately. I'm really not sure why. And I kind of feel like pushing everyone away. I was thinking that I have valid reason for not wanting to have a relationship with Kim anymore. Then I was thinking that I would stop seeing my family so much because they're pissing me off. Then I just realized that I was kind of pushing everyone away and I'm at a loss as to the reason. Being a psych major, I'm definitely interested.

I am a little annoyed with Kim right now. I believe she's back together with Dave again, but has she told me? No. I mean, I'm supposedly her best friend and she doesn't share this with me. We had a conversation (i.e. fight) just two weeks ago about how she had gotten back together with him three times in the past and never told me. She apologized, said it wasn't intentional, blah, blah, blah. Friday, he came over and spent the night. I would have been gone, but I had a horrible migraine so I was stuck. Of course they fought. Do they ever do anything else? And she barely talked to me the entire time he was there. Did she even say anything about the fight? No. I guess I was more annoyed than mad. It really wasn't that much of a surprise. I was just thinking, "Oh great here they go again and I'm too sick to escape this craziness." I really don't like how she is when she's with him. She's whiny and she nags a lot, she's manipulative, she starts fights for pretty much the pettiest reasons ever, etc. It's just ridiculous and I just don't think I can take much more of it. It's not easy to even consider letting a 6-year friendship go and I don't like to be "that friend" who turns her back on a friend who's making bad choices. But this has gone on for far too long and she doesn't even treat me with respect while she's with him. Oy. I know I'm saying I'm not angry, but maybe I am deep down. The reason that I think this is because she has been annoying the crap out of me lately. I mean, every little thing she does just irritates the hell out of me. It's such a dilemma.

Okay, so I am on my first overnight shift at the moment at the shelter. My boss called me earlier because someone called in sick. I'm working 11 to 7, then I have to work at 9 tomorrow and go to Spanish class tomorrow night. Man, I wish my body would let me have caffeine. I have a feeling I'm going to need it. It gets pretty quiet around here anyway. I have some work to do, but not much and I may lay my head down for like 10 minutes to get a catnap. Otherwise, I am so going to be dead to the world tomorrow.

Murder. . . or suicide?

I killed a bird today. Or rather, my car did. I was driving along minding my own business (singing along to the Rent soundtrack of course) and these birds flew across the road. I didn't really slow down because I figured they would scurry in mock terror to their homes in the sky. Not for one sad little fellow though. He flew really low and I didn't have time to stop, so I just heard this little thud and in my mirror I could see a stream of feathers in my dust. On one hand, I feel really guilty. On the other hand, I was thinking "Damn stupid bird. Why didn't you get the hell out of my way?" I thought there was some unwritten law that stated all birds should get out of the way of automobiles and we automatically have the right of way. I choose to believe the bird committed suicide. Seriously, it's like he flew right into my car and wasn't even trying to avoid it. Stupid bird.

Political Beliefs. . . this test confirms my family's fears

You are a Social Liberal (80% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (26% permissive) You are best described as a: Strong Democrat Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid Free Online Dating Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

Odds and Ends

I am in a much better mood today. I worked out with the "Slim in 6 video" again today despite the fact that my legs were still sore. Seriously, two days of soreness from a 20 minute workout? You know it's gotta be good. I did do nearly half an hour today, so I'm working my way through it. Give me time, it is a 78 minute workout. I'll work up to doing the whole thing.

I booked my flight to Bahamas. I decided to buy the ticket for there instead of using all of my free flights I got from Wendy's. That way, I will still have free flights for when I fly to Rochester and maybe to L.A. After I use my free flights for San Francisco, I'll still have two free one-way trips left. I may use one of them for Rochester and one for L.A. That way, I won't have to pay as much. I want to go to Rochester to see Luke in late May for the Lilac Festival, but I don't know if work will allow me to. I'll try to go sometime this summer though. Luke needs to take more decent pictures of me seeing as how he slacked off on that while he was here. I swear, first he slacks off being in charge of my sunglasses and then he slacks off on his picture-taking job. Oy. Oh well. I'm just going to Rochester for the incredible Dim Sum anyway. Hehe.

My migraines are really making me mad. Luckily, they've eased off a little in the past few days but they're still there. I got one last night and I was feeling bad earlier. My application for health insurance is still being reviewed and it might be 2 weeks before I even find out if I'm approved. I'm thinking of buying my medication online. It'll probably be $100 or more, but it's my health, right? So maybe I should do it and that will get me through until I get my insurance approved. Seriously, I hate being an adult. Teri Hatcher's character on Desperate Housewives got married to get health insurance. Right now, I'm thinking that might not be such a bad idea. Really, you think I'm kidding but the more I think about it the more I realize it could solve all my problems. A marriage in name only for health insurance? What could go wrong with that?

In a little bit of a funk

I am finally getting back to working out again and I like it. It feels good. Yesterday, I did an hour on the treadmill and my legs were really burning. I also tried this DVD from the "Slim in 6 Series." It's supposed to help you get fit and lose weight in 6 weeks. I could only do 20 minutes of the 75 minute workout. It's a good workout, but I have to work myself up to doing the whole thing. It's tough. My legs are sore today and I only did 20 minutes.

I am a little irritated with myself. Well, I'm partly irritated with myself and partly irritated with other people. I've been reading that book "Women who love too much." I know the title sounds corny, but bear with me. It's about women who are addicted to the drama of relationships and they feel like they need drama to be happy. I know I am like that. But I think I'm like that with my friends, too. I try to change them and try to force a relationship to work, even though I know it's not. I need to change these destructive patterns. If people aren't what they should be and don't care about me like I should, then I should just cut them loose, right? Easier said than done. I'm a little bit at a loss right now, I guess.

Anyway, back to more positive topics. Kim and I are making all the plans for our trip. Woo-hoo! Of course, she feels like everything has to be planned to the very last minute and that we should be doing something every second. Maybe it's just me, but I would like to sleep a little on this trip. I never get to sleep in. It would be nice to be able to sleep in a little. Oy. I can't wait though. It's going to be a blast. There is so much to eat in San Francisco! I could spend a week there just eating. But then I would weigh about 300 pounds. Hehe.